In which we take a deep breath and keep moving forward...

Some days it's difficult to keep looking at things in a positive manner. I mean, I try. I really do. I tend to be the "Well, if something bad happens, it could have been worse..." or "Maybe there's an up side to this..." I try to not let negative stuff get me down, and for the most part, I succeed.

Today, I'm having a bit of trouble.

I've been turning in 5-20 job applications a day, every day, for the past month. I've been job searching a bit less seriously for three months now, including a 2+ month period where I was keeping my eye out, but was mostly waiting to hear back on the position with White Wolf (because all the feedback I'd been given was very positive). I would estimate I've sent out something close to 300 applications, mostly either in the gaming industry or in the Phoenix area, over the last few months.

I've been to two job interviews and had one job offer. I have heard nothing from one interview (despite polite follow-up emails that have gone unanswered), been turned down for the other, and ... wait for it... you know it's coming...

Today, I was informed (very apologetically) that the Office Manager position I'd been offered in Phoenix had been given to another person. Now, i understand the company (a small real estate office) was doing right by "one of theirs". A dear friend of their family, who also works in the field, lost their job, and the couple felt like they really needed to support their "clan" by hiring her. I am all for taking care of your people. But it means that I'm once again back to step one on the job search.

I'm really trying to keep my spirits up, and keep looking on the sunny side. I am.

It's just a little cloudy around here today.

But I've got out my binoculars, and I'm on the look out for stray rays.